Gigi Lamayne Speaks On What Triggered Her Suicide Attempt
Gigi Lamayne has finally spoken about what led to to her suicide attempt,her support system, and her future plans.
She was born in what she describes as a quite destructive home, with school being her only escape. Her father has always been an alcoholic, and was always abusive towards her mother.
Gigi says her household shaped her in good and bad ways.
“My mom introduced me to the era of Salt ‘n Pepper and I loved the stories that were being told by Bob Marley and Tupac and I had an older brother who was musically inclined and listened to Biggie and my older sister was a huge fan of Eve and Da Brat. So, that helped shape my interest for poetry and rap.”
Growing up in an abusive home however affected her in a negative way.
“My father has impacted my relationships in the sense that I always find myself with people that have similar characteristics with him. I’ve also noticed that sometimes I have run away from good men because I’d think he is boring because I was conditioned that that was what love is.”
End life
In November this year, the Gigi tweeted her birth date and her date of death, which left a lot of her fans on Twitter worried about her well-being.
“I recently tried to take my life. It was because of a buildup of things in my life, from society pressures to me questioning my existence. I felt like life was a lot. The cyberbullying is something I thought wasn’t getting to me because I’d read things and it wouldn’t get to me but I guess it went in subconsciously.”
She started questioning her existence as she didn’t understand why life was unfair.
“I did everything by the book, excelled at school, didn’t get pregnant, then excelled in university but things aren’t working for me. I seem strong but because of my past and conditioning, I’m easily bullied. Continuing to get bullied and controlled because that’s all I know.
“So, all these things just brought up emotions that were suppressed and I landed up in hospital. And even before Pro’s death I had existential questions; who am I? Why do I wake up every morning? It got deep and people around me started noticing. It got to a point where I started questioning God, and why Pro? I started thinking about all the entertainers that are in backrooms and broke, is this what awaits me? Is this what I worked hard for? I have a degree and it’s still not happening. I want to be able to pay for my mother’s bills cash, why can’t I do that? Where is the money I work for going? Why does that kid believe in me? Does he know he will just be like me?”
With her stress mounting up, she decided November the 3rd would be her death date. She tweeted: “7 July 1994 – 3 November 2018.”
Someone picked the tweet and alerted Gig’s cousin who rushed to her, and took her to hospital.
The aftermath
Almost a week in hospital, Gigi took to social media to let her fans know, she’s still holding on. “Awake. Wasn’t time huh.”
She is now speaking to a therapist once in a while, and fiocused on her organization that helps young creatives in the industry finding themselves in sticky situations.
