My first wife left me because I was a really bad boy and immature – Ted Josiah

Veteran producer music producer Tedd Josiah has confessed that he’s the only reason why his first marriage never worked.

Speaking in a radio interview with Massewe Jappani on Radio Jambo, Josiah said that he was really immature when he first got hitched and wasn’t ready at all.

“I was young and stupid when I married my first wife. I was so arrogant and at that time I was not ready to marry. I played a part in making sure the marriage did not work. I was a really bad boy,” he said. 

Pain

Tedd remarried and settled down with Reginah Katar in 2016 only for her to pass on a year later after delivering her first baby.

He said that one of the reasons why he posts her daughter so much is because of guilt he carries from neglecting his kids from his first union.

“Losing the kids was so painful. I had another daughter who kept waiting for me at the gate every day but I was nowhere to be seen. That wound is still very fresh, but now is when we are trying to repair the bond that was broken then with my other two children,” Tedd said.

He went on:

“All the love that my other two children did not receive I decided to give to Jay, and all the mistakes that I did should not be repeated. It is a second chance that God has given me.

“Once the marriage broke I had a lot of time to reflect. I realised I needed children and I was so lonely. Sadly I can’t go back to my first marriage, because there is no chance for a reverse wheel in my life. We had differences that we can never solve,” he said.

Ted Josiah lost his job just months after getting a kid and losing his wife 

Veteran producer Tedd Josiah lost his wife at a time he needed her most. She had just given birth to their first daughter and then Regina Katar passed away.

But even before the Tedd could clearly figure out his next move, he lost his job just three months later, a thing that he says drove him crazy.

“I lost my job 3 months after her (Jamila) mum died and I’m sitting in the sitting room thinking to myself ‘okay so we are about to lose the house next’ and we are about to lose our whole world next,” he said on the Lets Talk Show.

Social media helped me

He went on to say that social media helped him get over it and focus on how he’s going to get his direction back.

“This journey has been easier because of social media,” Ted said in regards to going through the sudden loss of his wife.

“And someone on social media asked me to send my address as they have a parcel for me and I thought it was a card. But it was a whole box of brand new clothes and baby stuff and I’m thinking ‘Wow God bless this person, they don’t know how this has sort of helped me understand that this is not that bad.’  There are people looking out for you despite the fact that you don’t even know they are there. There have been tons of people who have come and supported us in the journey and it’s not just the stuff, it’s the prayers.”